Our inner monologue

            Although people are afraid to admit, we all talk to ourselves...each and every one of us. We encourage ourselves to "do better next time" or tell ourselves "you're almost there" and then there are times when we doubt ourselves look around to see if no one is looking and repeat over and over again "DUMB DUMB DUMB" Then there are those inner monologues that maybe question your sanity like having a serious conversation with yourself in the car or in the shower...some where you know that is safe. All inner monologues have no intention of leaking out to any outsiders, because then...you'd just be weird....

I find that Ensler wonderfully portrays a young teenage girls monologue in "let me in". Ensler writes in a way every reader can relate to... even if they're not a teenage girl living in suburbs, USA. One technique I caught onto was her repetitive phrases such as "Don't worry. I don't say this out loud. God no. Only in my head. These are my friends...supposedly." I believe Ensler was trying to send a message that the girl was so insecure with herself that she even had to justify her thoughts to the reader. This monologue tells every teenagers story. It's about a girl that wants to be popular and to fit in and in order to maintain her position on the hierarchy of what she calls "the posse" and she must have a constant inner monologue so people believe she is perfect and that she has everything under control.

The very reason people work things out in their head is to appear like they have everything together, when in actuality, they don't. It becomes most evident that the girl in this monologue was having too many of these conversations with herself to keep track of reality and her own thoughts. "Oh God. Everyone was looking. I must be really screaming. It's in the cafeteria and not just in my head." She tries so hard to be liked that her brain cannot handle this overload which results to her collapsing onto the floor. Wendy Apple is an important character in this monologue because she not only helps this girl but helps the reader to understand that everyone has their own voice inside telling them what and what not to do and sometimes you must listen to the one that is screaming "help, this is not right".